Friday, April 17, 2009


I was down and close to depression few days back, hard to understand why suddenly I was overcome with feeling of angry, sad and depressed.

I thought I was ok, I thought I was pretty good handling my situation in my life, but when few people around me start to look at me differently, especially those that knew my condition, it starts to make me feel so depress. I thought I was about to lose my mind...

Looking at current situation I suppose to be happier, I got increament and few months bonus at work. I got few problem here and there nothing I can't deal with. Trust me, when you have pregnant manager things can really be stressful, women with their hormones running wild. But other than that I had nothing serious going on.

I been having sleepless night on and off, there is a time I woke up in the middle of the night and having problems to sleep again. Maybe I think too much, I think way too much about stuff. I need to start writing my book but I don't know where to start, I feel like talking to a stranger (some qualify doc) and paid them RM$$$ to just let them listen to me for one hour and cried out loud and get it over and done with.

I need to do something that take my mind off.. I need a break and a holiday away from everyone around me....